"Life is a Journey, NOT a destination..."

Holy crap. I just got done re-reading some of my old posts and wow. I was really a depressive person. Always bitching about something and never doing anything to fix it. I can honestly say things have changed SO MUCH for me since leaving Jason. Im a happier and better person for leaving him. I have moved to a large city, finally obtained a job where I am able to use my degree and make good money, I am making enough to pay my bills and even save a little here and there. I have my own apartment, a puppy who relies on me, amazing friends and family who support and love me and I am dating a great guy who supports me and doesn't hinder my growth as a person but helps me on a daily basis grow and be better. He pushes me to never settle and I love that. 

Why do I always feel it neccesary to put on a show for people? Im not OK. I miss Jason. I want to be with him. Im also afraid that I wont make any friends up in NC. Is that normal?


Idk... Im tired... goodnight...

working tomorrow from 7-3. Suppose to be my day off... This sucks!

For doing​ an art proje​ct.​ I am suppo​se to desig​n an abstr​act art proje​ct where​ the outsi​de is decor​ated with color​s and shape​s that repre​sent what YOU as my frien​ds (or for the ones who dont like me or dont even know me at all, you too!!!!) see me as. I need ALL thoug​hts and opnions.​ If you dont like me OR if you do let me know OR if you dont know me at all but you think you get a vague idea of who I am and what I am about then TELL ME what you REALL​Y think​ of me as a perso​n.​ Tell me how you view me. PLEAS​E DO THIS FOR ME!​!​!​!​!​ Be brutally honest! I will be decor​ating​ the outsi​de of my proje​ct by the descr​iptio​ns you all give me.​.​.​ PLEAS​E HELP ME! Send me a messa​ge and just tell me how you view me!​!​!​

Thank​ you for your help!​!​!​!​!​!​!​!​!​!​!​!​!​!​!​!​!​

Amy

I am thinking I wish it was 3 days ago when I was still in Jason's arms....off to class and work.

Here's the deal. You look over the following list and see how many of these things you have done. BUT you have to ADD up the money amount along the way. Then post the amount that you are as the title of the bulletin. Anyone reading your blog is allowed to ask for 3 things you have not done, but they must take the survey and post it on their blog.

$729 - $583 Whoaaa! Do I know you?
$582 - $364 Let’s Get To Know Each Other *WEG*
$363 - $218 You are Fairly Normal J
$217 and Below You need to have more fun!


Have you ever kissed someone of the opposite sex? $1
Have you ever kissed someone of the same sex? $5
Have you ever drunk alcohol? $1
Have you ever been drunk? $5
Have you ever passed out from being drunk? $10
Have you ever not remembered what you did the previous night because you were too drunk? $20
Have you ever masturbated? $1
Have you masturbated using a toy? $5
Have you ever masturbated with the opposite gender? $10
Have you ever masturbated with the same gender? $15
Have you ever masturbated the opposite gender? $12
Have you ever masturbated the same gender? $20
Have you ever used a toy while masturbating the opposite gender? $15
Have you ever used a toy while masturbating the same gender? $25
Have you ever gotten oral? $5
Have you ever given oral? $10
Have you ever gotten oral from the same gender? $10
Have you ever given oral to the same gender? $15
Have you ever had sex with opposite gender? $10
Have you ever had sex while drunk with opposite gender? $12
Have you ever awakened in bed with opposite sex and not remembered what happened/their name because you were drunk? $20
Have you ever had sex with same gender? $20
Have you ever had sex with same gender while drunk? $22
Have you ever awakened in bed with same gender and not remembered what happened/their name because you were drunk? $25
Have you ever had a 3some, MFM? $20
Have you ever had a 3some, FMF? $25
Have you ever had a 3some FFF/MMM? $30
Have you ever had a 4some or more? $50
Have you ever used a toy during sex with opposite gender? $15
Have you ever used a toy during sex with same gender? $25
Have you ever had anal sex with opposite gender? $30
Have you ever had anal sex with same gender? $40
Have you ever taken a nude photo? $10
Have you ever had a nude photo taken? $20
Have you ever taken a video of nude subject? $15
Have you ever been nude in a video? $25
Have you ever been in a sex video? $40
Have you ever taken drugs for recreational purposes? $20
Have you ever had sex with opposite gender with doing drugs? $30
Have you ever had sex with same gender while doing drugs? $40

and God is good. Jason is not deploying. He is on a 90 day profile to get his meds right and be able to go to therapy. I love how God answers prayers!!!! He is so amazing! I love time of year... when it starts to cool off and the leaves begin to change colors... oh yea! haha

Life is busy and stressful, but good.