"Be somebody nobody can imitate and Make up your mind to be Happy"

So lately I have been posting my resume/CV EVERYWHERE! Any and EVERY job there is out there in NC I have been applying for. Havent heard back from anyone. I only have 4 months left of school and then I am moving up there to be with Jason and I HAVE to and NEED to have a job by then! This is stressful!!!! I have been praying God will lead me towards what he wants me to do but I still feel like I am running around with my head cut off! I dont know what to do where to apply to or ANYTHING! Im scared I wont be able to find a job and then what?! I dont want Jason and to be broke or to be strapped for cash! UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

If you know of ANYONE looking to hire anyone in the Fayetteville/Fort Bragg/Hope Mills/Raeford area of North Carolina PLEAS PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE let me know!!!!!

Word to Big Bird everyone!

Yesterday was the OFFICAL 2 month (60 Days) COUNTDOWN!!!!! Im excited!!!!! We just got the last bridesmaid dress today, I mailed out the invitations today and the programs are getting ordered in the next few days. Stress levels are high and tension is building between my mom and I but I am hoping things will get back to normal soon so we can enjoy the whole upcoming wedding. IM GETTING MARRIED!!!!! YAY!!!!! I cant wait! So much to do in so little time! But the more its coming together the more excited (and stressed) I get! haha

I love you Jason!

Word to Big Bird. God Bless.

Sooooooo Jason and I have 75 DAYS until we are MARRIED!!!! WHOO HOO!!!! I cant wait to be his wife! I spend the first night in his arms as Mrs. Johnson! I CANT WAIT!!!!! Plans are coming along great. We have everything BIG done. All we need to do now is finish the smaller details such as the flowers and the reception decorations (which we already have most of) and just a few other little odds and ends.

So on Sunday my baby is coming down to be with me! My puppy that is! For my wedding gift Jason got me a year and a half year old female basset hound!!!! Her name is itchy and she is so preciouse! I cant wait to get her down here! Jason did an AMAZING job at getting her for me!

In other news I am the race photographer for the international catarmeran boat race Tybee 500 again this year!!!! YAY!!!! Its a really exciting race and I am honored to be here again! Trying to get my name out there more as a photographer. If any of you know anyone who needs a photographer check out my page at:

www.myspace.com/amariephotography

Lastly I am done with my Chemistry degree! This sesmter was my LAST semester taking chemistry classes! The great news with that is I finished the semester with a 3.57 GPA meaning I ended my semester on the DEANS LIST!!!!!!! YEA!!!!!!! I worked my ass off for it and I am very happy to finally have made it!

Well that is all! Im off to head to dinner then get more rest. If you want to check out my race photos for the week check out www.Tybee500.com

word to big bird!!!!!

Sitting here watching "Hook" with Jason I cant help but feel my heart is about to explode with the love I feel for him! Its so hard when we fight so much because we never get to see each other. I wish I had more money to pay for the gas and the hotel rooms and food. But we dont. But the days I do get to spend with him are AMAZING! I love falling asleep in his arms, waking up to his sweet sweet kisses, staring into his glass green eyes and seeing him smile because I know he is feeling exactly what I am feeling... head over heels in love...

I cant wait until we are married and get to be like this everyday!!! I love Jason with my whole heart and dont have a roof to shout it from, so Im doing it from the internet! haha

Word to Big Bird to All!

Today would have been my dads 49th birthday... Happy Birthday Dad...

Also, Happy St. Patricks Day everyone!

These are pictures of a manatee mailbox I always see coming home from Savannah. Every time I see this mailbox it makes me laugh a little. I think its funny because its on a highway that is almost deserted. Its not a very big, well known highway and most of the time it is a 2 lane highway. PLUS we are in the middle of GA, not FL or somewhere tropical like that...we are in REDNECKVILLE GA!!! HAHAHAHAHA So now I have a picture of it and if I ever need a good chuckle I can look at it!

**What makes it even better is the baby manatee at the bottom of it!!!**

So as I was driving home today from Herty I got back to my old self. I havent felt like "ME" in a long time. I dont know why either. I think a lot of it has to do with the fact I feel like my friends are isolating themselves from me. I barley speak to them anymore and when I do its this weird tension that has never been there. I dont know what to do about either. So, like with any problem I have in life, I turn to God and photography. I pray, then go out and take photos. Today turned out to be a great day for shots too! Ill post some up here and to check out the rest you can go to my photo-bucket account:

http://s71.photobucket.com/albums/i151/workinggirl16/

Anyway... thats about all thats new. I got to hang out with my mom-in-law, sister-in-law, my niece, and my mom and Gerry this weekend. It was nice to be able to hang out with the family and just relax for a little bit. Mom ad Gerry are coming up here for my LAST research presentation in April. And I LOVE when my mom comes to visit!!!!

Well I am off to edit more photos before trivia tonight. Check out my photos and let me know what you all think!

Love to All and Word to Big BIrd

Well not much is really going on. I am up at Herty waiting for my Computational Class to start. We are geometry optimizing the 3 resonce structures of Phenylphalene. WHOO HOO!!! haha (not really).

As soon as I get out of class I am headed to Savannah for the weekend to visit with friends that I havent seen in months and my mom. I'm so happy that I am still friends with people from high school. I can honestly say I think we will be life long friends. We probably wont talk as much as we do now (which isn't much to begin with) but when we do its like we haven't gotten a day without talking.

One thing that is bothering me is peoples negativity towards my marriage to Jason! I made a wedding website and an old friend of my moms got on and left a comment that said "I hope this is what you really want"...Like I don't know what I want?!?! Then Jason tells me that he finally talks to his Grandfather about being his Best Man and his Grandfather agreed but said that he thinks we should wait awhile. Why do people keep questoning me/us on this? Or telling me they think I should wait? I LOVE JASON!!! Nothing is going to change! If anything, I grow more in love with him as the days go on. Each new day, each new argument we have, each new joke we tell...I grow more and more in love with him! Weither I marry him in July or wait 2 years my feelings for him WONT CHANGE!!! I want to spend the REST OF MY LIFE with this man!!! He is my best friend, my lover, my strength, my encourgement, my muse, my guardian angel... he is my EVERYTHING!!! Why cant people see that? Why must you question me? Why cant you just be happy for me? I think you all who have negative thoughts toward this wedding should follow the old golden rule "If you don't have anything nice to say, don't say anything at all". You may think you are trying to be my friend by saying crap like that but your not. You are just pissing me off! I am going to marry Jason and you can either be happy that I have found the love of my life, or not be part of it at all...thats up to you.

I know people are worried because yes, Jason and I have had a rough past with each other. But we have worked that out. I realized when I wasn't with him I felt empty and incomplete. I missed him like crazy and cried myself to sleep wishing he was in my life. I missed my best friend and felt lost without him. Now he is back in my life and we couldn't be happier. We are going stronger than ever and we are only getting stronger as the days go on. We are excited about being married and getting our house together. Bringing both our individual lives to form a new life TOGETHER!!!

Thats all the ranting I will do today...I just needed to get that off of my chest.

Word to Big Bird and Love to All...